Row row row this boat

i hate it when like, you want something, but you know that the opposite of what you want is the better thing so you stop yourself from making what you want happen

A friend messaged me about her crush and we ended up talking about stuff of that matter up to around 2:30 in the morning. I blame the cold morning hours for letting me plunge deep into my mind about everything. I like to do what I call "self reflection" just to see where I am these days as well as what I've learned along the way. The italicized statement is what I told this friend of mine. She replies with a simple exactly! and that put us both in the same boat. I guess I could say she and I are rowing around in a pool of feelings both vague and so clear we both just wanna close our eyes to the reality of it. She and I are rowing in a body of water that seems to have no horizon. This could be true (the non-existence of a horizon), but I think we're just rowing rather slowly. We are not, and of this I am positive, rowing aimlessly; we perfectly know what we want for ourselves. It's just the feelings that remain in our humble boat make it a little uncomfortable sometimes to even just be with ourselves. 

There are plenty other boats in this vast vague pool. Knowing that we aren't the only ones here could maybe better the discomfort we sometimes feel.